Nothing more than a sorry

I know I owe you a apology because of what I've done. What's exactly wrong with me? I kept on acting like a jerk. Even if I'm being scolded by you, I will still act like this. Is it because that I depend on you too much? Or is it that you once gave me hope but now, you're ignoring me again.. I don't know .. You're so different from the rest. I remember I wasn't like this when I was with Baby. [I'm still used to calling you Baby] I remember sending B. 1 message that i regretted for the rest of my life. Sigh, i wish i could act like a mature young-adult . Just tell me, what's wrong with me ? I've never given anyone permission to scold you, yet I'm granting you the priority now.

Pink for them

Some would ask me why k-pop? Do you even understand?! If I were to answer it a few years ago, my answer would be, "I agree.. What's the point of being so crazy about them?" But right now, my answer is very simple. "Cos I find them interesting". Short and simple answer. I'm currenly crazy for Girls' Generation and Super Junior & f(x) [not long ago] . I find their music quite nice and even learnt korean because of that. What I really like about them is because of their voices. The 9 of them : Most of them can sing really well while the others can dance well. Some would say that it's because of their looks and their legs that makes me appeal to some. For me, I like their voices. They have a dorky leader, Taeyeon, who makes people laugh without herself knowing it. Taeyeon also has a wonderful voice which can go really high ~ A bright Sunny who is famous for her ageyo, a cheeky Sooyoung and a playful Hyoyeon known for her dancing skills. Till now, I still can't figure out Yoona quite well but the way she speak, is very organised. Yuri, the silly and innocent girl who doesn't know how to control her laughter sometimes. Used to be least-favourite, Jessica, turns out to be a really amusing person. Known for her cool personality and violence, I like her high-pitch voice. "Never run even if you're late" - That's her motto but I've seen her breaking it several times with her girls. :) Seohyun, the honest maknae who is still in her 20s, always caring for her unnies. Lastly, my bias, Tiffany, who is known for her eyesmile. I believe that it's because of her personality and her background which makes her my favourite. She can be rather straight-forward at times and knows how to express her emotions. Her husky voice is one which I envy a lot. Seriously, I admire them a lot. I want to have Taeyeon's voice, Sooyoung's legs, Sunny's cuteness, Hyoyeon's dancing skills, Yoona's way of speaking, Yuri's hyper mood, Jessica's cool personality, Seohyun's honesty and Tiffany's kiddy personality.

From Boy To Men

Just send my brother to Pulau Tekong today . Hmm, to be honest, I was actually counting to the days when he'll be enlisting a couple of months ago. But yesterday night, I burst out crying. The thought that he will be in some isolated island. I almost cried while having the last meal before he goes for his NS. I used to quarrel with him a lot when we were young. I would prefer to quarrel with him everyday like how we did in the past rather than become so cold with him right now.

This morning, woke up at around 6:30 am to prepare. I guess that Bro didn't sleep a lot too, he woke up very early. :( Had Mac Breakfast @ White Sands . Saw some botak guys too . Aww, my brother with that almost-bad-head makes me feel like sayang his head so much! :D He looked so young with that hairstyle. He loves his precious hair so much, I wonder how he can shave it so easily. Took a boat to Pulau Tekong . This is the first time I'm travelling on a boat, din't noe tat it would shake so much but luckily, I got something to distract me. We were separated when we reached there. Went to tour around the BMTC, was so much better than those in the past. Got pool table, good quality beds and facilities especially the food, it's so much better ! or maybe it's the first day so they served you good food first.

Headed to the auditorium and they recited the oath. Ohh, i feel so proud of my brother hahah! I guess that I miss him more than my parents did. :) When I first stepped into the girls toilet, the smell is totally __________ . Okay, that's the only bad thing. 2 weeks more before I get to see my brother again and hear stories from him. :D Hope he'll get enough sleep bah! He's an owl! :P Don't worry about daddy and mummy ! I will take good care of them *with a cheeky smile* Lol, I hope to see you become a more 'man'' brother okay! Btw, your muscles are already big and solid enough, don't train until got 12 packs hor! Hope to see you transform a 堂堂正正的男人！加油！

The right choice

I had a really exciting day today. Firstly, I got back all of my papers except for chinese .. hmm, a B3 for Combined. Hum. is never satisfying. I dropped from A1 to A2 then B3 . I feel that my source-based are really weak. My math was ________ . Lucky, Mrs Lee still marked my paper despite that I din't do 1 qns on 1 page and I wrote that her baby is overweight. Hahaha! Well, I had no mood to study Math at that time. I knew I wasn't able to focus that time, when I was studying. At least, overall still passed. Someone occupied my mind. My english results is still considered okay. I'm so glad that I passed my summary after so long. I'm not good at summary ~

F&N still dk results yet cos cher haven mark section c but I know my other sections results already , still not bad luh! :DD Bio was _____ totally out of words when i saw my paper. Just when I felt that the paper was easy, it shocked me ! I thought that I'd be able to get good results cos I did revised for 5 hours ! despite that I have to study for ss for the same day too! :( Was really quite sad luh but didn't want to argue for marks since Mr. Ang already marked until like that and I dun think that I'd be able to find enough marks for me to pass too. Also, Mr. Ang is unwell today. Was surprised that he could make it to school despite that his whole face was bloody red . Haix !

LASTLY, IT'S CHEMISTRY TIME ! :D One of the papers which I've been waiting ever since I sat for it. To be honest, I wasn't sure if I could meet my teacher expectations. I was damn happy when she announced that I'm the highest. 56.5/70 - to me, it seems like a dream ! :P nevertheless, it's not the time to be proud ! Still have to see overall ! my bio really pulled me down. Hope to achieve my targets ! Jiayous ~

Your smile is worth everything. You were the one whom I've been waiting for.

The original might not be the best

' God, please give me the strength. Please help me. I feel so tired and I really need Your help. '

Hey peeps, back to posting again since I have the time. Last friday's practical was really a shocking one. I'm still suffering from post-practical feeling . I tell you, I won't even dare to eat salmon for th next few days. Not that my one was horrible, it's just that 4 dishes in 2 hours to a person who doesn't even know how to cook maggie mee, is a big challenge. Lol, I'm not a spoilt child or whatsoever, it's just that my mum would say that 我是越帮越忙 everytime I step into the kitchen, so I might as well use the time to practice my guitar. Sometimes, I feel pissed off by my friends.

When you stepped on my toes

Seriously, I was really quite pissed off during P.E lesson today. Let me tell you all what happened ..

Yesterday : We were playing handball with 3/7 girls too . While we were playing, she came to block me [man-mark] me. Instead of using her hands to block me, she used her elbow which accidentally hit both of my shoulders. I know it's just a game so I didn't really care about her and continued with the game. However, she treat it more like a boxing show. She still hit my lower chin .. I wanted to tell her that but since our class are neighbours, shall not make a fuss about it.

Today : I didn't manmark her. Kept on playing until the final minute. She got the ball and wanted to hit the cones. However, I was there. I used my hand and block the ball. Somehow, she stepped on my leg and led to a red spot. Pissed off totally. Now that I'm cooled down alr, shall let the matter go

No money , no talk

Decided to unprivate my blog again for those who want to see. Hmm, the reason why I am so angry this morning is because of my mother's family again. My uncle is going to get married and he doesn't have any money!!! WHAT NONSENSE IS THIS? IF YOU DO NOT HAVE MONEY, WHY GET MARRIED IN THE FIRST PLACE? DON'T EXPECT US TO FEED YOU AND YOUR WIFE NXT TIME. My grandfather made a very unreasonable response. He said to my mum that since she's the elder sister, she should sponsor some of it. Like hello, that day then u said that 女儿就像是泼出去的水, now still expect my mum to pay for his wedding? Since when did that irresponsible uncle of mine did something good? I don't even know why he's getting married in the first place. He got married once but divorced. Then, he got himself multiple of girlfriends. So, what's the point of getting married? Don't be a burden to your wife okay?

You all should be glad that although my mum is married, she still go back to her family everyday. My father doesn't complain, we all know that she's a filial daughter. Grandpa, open your eyes BIG BIG. MY MUM IS THE ONE WHO HELPED YOU EVERYTIME WHEN YOU HAVE FINANCIAL PROBLEMS ; NOT THOSE SONS OF YOURS. I TELL YOU , SINCE WHEN DID MY MUM BRING YOU ANY TROUBLE? I'M SICK OF ALL OF YOU. THE REASON WHY I AM STILL CALLING YOU UNCLES AND AUNTIES IS BECAUSE OF MY MUM. ONE DAY, I MIGHT JUST RETALIATE BACK. In case you people are calling me a baddie, I shall give a brief description of my mother's family. I won't say about my grandparents though, i know it's right for my mum to take care of them.

2nd uncle : Seldom visit my grandparents. His wife sot sot de, doesn't allow his son to visit my grandma at all for about 15 years already. Do you know that how much they miss him?

4th uncle : Getting into trouble every single time. Firstly, borrowed money from loan-sharks. Causes trauma to all of us. Now, getting married but no money. Still dare to borrow money from my mum. Even his debts were cleared by my mum. Call yourself a man.

5th uncle : Nothing to complain about though but I've no idea why he's always siding with his tenants everytime. 我们不是慈善机构！

6th uncle : Doesn't earn a lot but his wife certainly knows how to extort money from my mum. Birthday cakes, pizzas .. etc. Din't even give me angpao anymore !

Seriously, these are all the males in my mum's family who have really caused me a big headache. My mother isn't your atm machine. Don't ever come and approach her for money again. Don't make me hate you all so much can ? Before you even borrow money from us, return us back the money you borrowed last time. If this continues on , I can't promise that I will sever ties with all of us . And that's for real. 我们黄家和我妈，不是这么好欺负的。。总之，这次欠我妈多少，我要你们通通一毛钱也不剩，还给我们。